Hay. It's been months since I've last posted. And as far as I can remember, it's been months since I have been this stressed. School works have gotten into my nerves. Being a student is never easy, especially when you are in a program which requires a lot of thinking, not only technically but also imaginatively.
Way back my high school days, I used to dream of being a Civil Engineer. But as people say, life does not always go the way you want it to be. So I just let my self go with the flow, and now I am here, taking the path to being a future architect. The path was never an easy one- you get to sleep at most two hours during "peak season" of plates, work with different sorts of people, meet various expectations, and experience failures for a number of times. But despite all the challenges, I know that at the end of this journey is a fruitful and successful life. So I am left with no choice but to strive harder and harder each day.
The only thing that breaks my heart today is that I hardly speak to anyone anymore. It's not that I isolate my self- I just dont have the luxury of time to do so. The moment I wake up in the morning, I'll turn my computer on to work on my sketchup model. And then, I'll draft til the evening inside my cluttery yet brightly lit room (maybe the lighting makes me see the clutter even more hahaha). Everytime I take a break, the thought of the deadlines keeps on haunting me. So the end result: I'll just go back to work.
I feel the huge need for someone to talk to. Someone normal, someone who can make me laugh, someone who can take all my worries away. And maybe, someone who can love me. You know, everyone needs an inspiration every once in a while ;)
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Hassle free(?)
Hay, another sem is about to start again. Meaning, there will be less sleep, less time to eat, less leisure activities and mooooooooore of the school works, haha. But it's kinda weird that I feel more excited to do these things in the future. I know, this kind of living had made my life seem so mechanical for the past few months. But no matter how undesirable it may seem, I like the feeling of torturing my self to death by working hard. Is this masochism? I do not know. All I know is that there are certain kinds of pain in which I am very addicted to. haha.
One of those pain is the pain of failing in my expectations, particularly in love. I easily get infatuated to someone, especially those caring, and charming, people. I give meanings to their slightest deeds, and make them my inspiration for my dreams.
Today, I'll go to work, hoping to find someone to love. :
One of those pain is the pain of failing in my expectations, particularly in love. I easily get infatuated to someone, especially those caring, and charming, people. I give meanings to their slightest deeds, and make them my inspiration for my dreams.
Today, I'll go to work, hoping to find someone to love. :
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
"As long as you love, you will still have hope"
Hay. The Love of Siam is the best.
Even though it was my second time to watch it, I still feel the excitement and the feelings, as if it was my first time to see it. The actors, Pchy and Mario Maurer, were great and very convincing. I also admired the woman who played as the mother; she acted so well. The movie's cinematography was also good.
But the thing that captured me the most was the way the concept and the story was laid out. The director and staff of the movie had done a great job in combining the concepts and scenes together. The movie had carried my emotions so much. It was a fantastic movie, not only because of the same gender love theme, but as a whole. Super thumbs up. you should watch it guys!
P.S. Hay, I can still feel the love <3<3<3
Even though it was my second time to watch it, I still feel the excitement and the feelings, as if it was my first time to see it. The actors, Pchy and Mario Maurer, were great and very convincing. I also admired the woman who played as the mother; she acted so well. The movie's cinematography was also good.
But the thing that captured me the most was the way the concept and the story was laid out. The director and staff of the movie had done a great job in combining the concepts and scenes together. The movie had carried my emotions so much. It was a fantastic movie, not only because of the same gender love theme, but as a whole. Super thumbs up. you should watch it guys!
P.S. Hay, I can still feel the love <3<3<3
Monday, October 22, 2012
Public service
In a developing country like the Philippines, the government plays a huge role in shaping the future. PUBLIC SERVICE. Something that these officials had sworn by the time that they entered the office. It is the passion to serve his countrymen without further ados, even if this means sacrificing his or her own comfort.
But today, as I line to be a registered viter, together with 499 other people, I cannot feel the passion. I cannot feel the care. most of all, I do not feel the respect. What I feel us intimidation and irritation. aren't thesexpeople supposed to bring the masses close to the government, and not keep them away from it.
There was a numbering system, but it was a random one. I do admit, I feel guilty being ahead those who came in first, but no. IT IS NOT MY FAULT, its the system's.
Right now, my brain isn't working properly already. I feel like being in the game of survival of the fittest.
Ang makarehistro, panalo. Ang mamatay, talo.
But today, as I line to be a registered viter, together with 499 other people, I cannot feel the passion. I cannot feel the care. most of all, I do not feel the respect. What I feel us intimidation and irritation. aren't thesexpeople supposed to bring the masses close to the government, and not keep them away from it.
There was a numbering system, but it was a random one. I do admit, I feel guilty being ahead those who came in first, but no. IT IS NOT MY FAULT, its the system's.
Right now, my brain isn't working properly already. I feel like being in the game of survival of the fittest.
Ang makarehistro, panalo. Ang mamatay, talo.
A very good morning (?)
"As long as you love, you still have hope"
AWW. The Love of Siam is the beeeeeeeeeest! it is so inpiring! Not only because of the good actors, but also because of the excellent plot and good screenplay. UGH! I can't go over it. Last night (or was it a while ago, I dunno), I have played their ost for three times and still can't get enough! Good thing I remembered that I need to our municipal hall to register. Deym! I have to get sone sleep.
As of now, I am patiently waiting here in the municipal hall, standing with the other future voters. The future which will be clear for at most 500 people everyday, and is threatened for thousand of others. It is now half past seven, and I still have to wait for thirty shit more minutes. Hope this time, I'll be successful.
AWW. The Love of Siam is the beeeeeeeeeest! it is so inpiring! Not only because of the good actors, but also because of the excellent plot and good screenplay. UGH! I can't go over it. Last night (or was it a while ago, I dunno), I have played their ost for three times and still can't get enough! Good thing I remembered that I need to our municipal hall to register. Deym! I have to get sone sleep.
As of now, I am patiently waiting here in the municipal hall, standing with the other future voters. The future which will be clear for at most 500 people everyday, and is threatened for thousand of others. It is now half past seven, and I still have to wait for thirty shit more minutes. Hope this time, I'll be successful.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Efficiency is the key
Ok. Nakaka-asar.
Today, I've set my goal to be a registered voter.
But deym, I was so frustrated going to the municipal hall twice and still not accomplish my agenda. I mean, ok I understand that being in office for almost the whole day dealing with us, the pathetic masses, might consume your energy. But please, I hope you'll still show us even a bit of respect. I asked the person on the front desk (or entrance, whatever) if the registration is still going on. He said "cut-off na, mamayang hapon na ulet". I asked him again, and he gave the same reply,
Fine.
I went back in the afternoon, hoping that I can finish today. I went in, and there was soooo much chaos: people are everywhere, and there is very poor lighting. Voices of people chatting and officers shouting filled the. I approached an old woman and asked her wher to go and how does the reg process go. And guess what? She said, "ay cut-off na po. hanggang 500 lang po yung nabigyan ng number. Yung iba nga po dito madaling araw pa nandito eh. Balik na lang po kayo bukas ng umaga, mga before 7 am. " Pagkarinig nito, nagpantig talaga yung mga tenga ko. The hell? Why did that man told me to go back by one if the registration was already closed by the time I arrived during the morning?
And why such disorder? despite the small space, order can still be achieved only if some brilliant minds will think. You can put chairs ouside, then have a runner or any personnel who will walk for nearly fifty meters, or even less, to call at least ten people to wait for their turn inside. Unfavorable weather outside? Use the tents! YEAH, those tents with the face of the government officials. Those tents they use during meetin de avance, feeding programs and other oh-so-Charitable works. With those techniques, this chaos may be at least lessened. AND PLEASE. Dun sa mga siga-sigaan dyan dahil nakasuot ng uniforms, C'MON. Kung ang presidente nga, tingin sa mga mamamayan, BOSS nya (kahit di ko ramdam), kayo pa kaya? I have nothing against these guys, for I do not know them personally, but these kinds of people are the one putting the government away from the reach of the commoners. They want to be respected, yet they are the ones who disrespect others first. I am not generalizing those guys, JUST SOME OF THEM.
I am a very patient person. I don't really mind waiting, even under the heat of the sun, if I know that the thing I am waiting for is worth the effort. I know, being a registered voter should be worth it, but with this kind of system wherein to register is becoming more of an obligation rather than a privilege, it is hard to be patient.
I'll give it another try tomorro. If ever I'll still not make it, di na ako magpapa-registro this year. I am still worth a vote, sila ang nawalan at hindi ako.
Today, I've set my goal to be a registered voter.
But deym, I was so frustrated going to the municipal hall twice and still not accomplish my agenda. I mean, ok I understand that being in office for almost the whole day dealing with us, the pathetic masses, might consume your energy. But please, I hope you'll still show us even a bit of respect. I asked the person on the front desk (or entrance, whatever) if the registration is still going on. He said "cut-off na, mamayang hapon na ulet". I asked him again, and he gave the same reply,
Fine.
I went back in the afternoon, hoping that I can finish today. I went in, and there was soooo much chaos: people are everywhere, and there is very poor lighting. Voices of people chatting and officers shouting filled the. I approached an old woman and asked her wher to go and how does the reg process go. And guess what? She said, "ay cut-off na po. hanggang 500 lang po yung nabigyan ng number. Yung iba nga po dito madaling araw pa nandito eh. Balik na lang po kayo bukas ng umaga, mga before 7 am. " Pagkarinig nito, nagpantig talaga yung mga tenga ko. The hell? Why did that man told me to go back by one if the registration was already closed by the time I arrived during the morning?
And why such disorder? despite the small space, order can still be achieved only if some brilliant minds will think. You can put chairs ouside, then have a runner or any personnel who will walk for nearly fifty meters, or even less, to call at least ten people to wait for their turn inside. Unfavorable weather outside? Use the tents! YEAH, those tents with the face of the government officials. Those tents they use during meetin de avance, feeding programs and other oh-so-Charitable works. With those techniques, this chaos may be at least lessened. AND PLEASE. Dun sa mga siga-sigaan dyan dahil nakasuot ng uniforms, C'MON. Kung ang presidente nga, tingin sa mga mamamayan, BOSS nya (kahit di ko ramdam), kayo pa kaya? I have nothing against these guys, for I do not know them personally, but these kinds of people are the one putting the government away from the reach of the commoners. They want to be respected, yet they are the ones who disrespect others first. I am not generalizing those guys, JUST SOME OF THEM.
I am a very patient person. I don't really mind waiting, even under the heat of the sun, if I know that the thing I am waiting for is worth the effort. I know, being a registered voter should be worth it, but with this kind of system wherein to register is becoming more of an obligation rather than a privilege, it is hard to be patient.
I'll give it another try tomorro. If ever I'll still not make it, di na ako magpapa-registro this year. I am still worth a vote, sila ang nawalan at hindi ako.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Love-ly
It's been long since I've read a love story. With a very busy sched and tons of work to do, it seems that finding time for reading these blogs is not possible. Oh well, bakasyon ngayon, and this is what I like the most with vacations: having control of your time, and not worrying of "over-sleeping" because you know that tomorrow will not be a busy day.
This story had really caught me. It is about a boy who had a lot of experiences loving men. Reading this story kinda gives me an escape of the reality that never will I experience something like that. It is only here that I feel the kilig I have dreamt of. Good thing I have this very creative and imaginative mind.
This reminds me of the guy I had taught in one of the tutorial sessions that I had attended. At first glance, I knew this boy was carrying a heavy problem on his shoulders. May sound corny, but I saw it through his eyes. The session started, and I did my best to keep awake since I was awake for nearly 18 hours that time without any decent sleep. At first, I felt his hesitation to open up to me, making our conversation purely academic. And because I am in my highest sabaw state during that moment, I made the moves to shift the conversation. And I was successful. He had shared some of his problems and experiences. There was even a time when he was the one introducing the stories to me. Haaay, what a wonderful handsome boy. Given the chance, I would be very pleased to take care of him and caress his wounded heart. I hope to see that boy very soon. I miss you :)
This story had really caught me. It is about a boy who had a lot of experiences loving men. Reading this story kinda gives me an escape of the reality that never will I experience something like that. It is only here that I feel the kilig I have dreamt of. Good thing I have this very creative and imaginative mind.
This reminds me of the guy I had taught in one of the tutorial sessions that I had attended. At first glance, I knew this boy was carrying a heavy problem on his shoulders. May sound corny, but I saw it through his eyes. The session started, and I did my best to keep awake since I was awake for nearly 18 hours that time without any decent sleep. At first, I felt his hesitation to open up to me, making our conversation purely academic. And because I am in my highest sabaw state during that moment, I made the moves to shift the conversation. And I was successful. He had shared some of his problems and experiences. There was even a time when he was the one introducing the stories to me. Haaay, what a wonderful handsome boy. Given the chance, I would be very pleased to take care of him and caress his wounded heart. I hope to see that boy very soon. I miss you :)
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